Tears of maybe

Sitting near holding my tears

Telling myself there’s not a thing I should fear

Wishing I could kick my own ass into gear

“Just move” I whisper to myself

Spiraling up and down and all around

Take a breath *sigh.. oh, that helped

Breath in breath out

What was I doing again

Tears hot and heavy still in the corners of my eyes

What just happened

How fast the sadness and confusion comes and goes

A piece here

A piece there

My heart is aching

My spirit misplaced

Work has yet to be started

Messy space

Tired and exhausted

Trying to keep steady with the pace

Cold sweat my thoughts do cause

When did I pause

To be able and willing

changing flaws

Forgetting …….. what was I doing again

Oh well

Wipe the tears

Sit up straight

Just get through the day

Smile

Too many words

Placing themselves within

Hidden away

For when to begin

A gnawing constant

That screams and shouts

Please Lord God ….

Keep my heart.

For today

Maybe I might just fall apart.

~smc

The Hymn of “We”

The shell of once was

Has crumbled and set ablaze.

The blinding pain is unbearable

The rage of a scream

A sigh of relief

A fist of frustration

All which bring a river

Slowly falling

From thine eyes

Sitting here not knowing what may be

Brings the feelings, maybe

We weren’t meant to be free

Free from a hymn

Which is We

Flowing ever so viciously

So as we grow in the shit of this day

Know we are loved from above

For its always been

Acceptance with Love

That will heal

The fractures of our Love

Forever and Always

~Shawnna