The shell of once was
Has crumbled and set ablaze.
The blinding pain is unbearable
The rage of a scream
A sigh of relief
A fist of frustration
All which bring a river
From thine eyes
Sitting here not knowing what may be
Brings the feelings, maybe
We weren’t meant to be free
Free from a hymn
Which is We
Flowing ever so viciously
So as we grow in the shit of this day
Know we are loved from above
For its always been
Acceptance with Love
That will heal
The fractures of our Love
Forever and Always
I am a temple within God?.
No longer will I endure the torment of an image that is not mine. I am meant for freedoms. The past has left a wake of despair but my moment is in the now. What is done in that moment is what will define my next. I am tired of being scared of love. For I have known the ins and outs of a great love and let me tell you… the pain is so unbearable yet some how I find a sweetness deep within just so I am able to say Im ok. But ok with what,.. being in despair, sorry , but fudging flippiddy that.
Love is not a possession to be had but a gift that is shared by actions that have nothing to do with ourselves. Today I choose to give love to myself , to respect myself, to prove myself to me. If that makes sense.
I’m tired of trying so hard to be someone to someone else and nobody to me.
My promise is with God and that makes me smile. In the now. 😃
Jealousy is a horrible feeling. It causes such destructive thinking. It’s such a weird emotion for me to comprehend. It’s amazing how fast the craziness started to swell with in me when I saw he had befriended his ex on Facebook. At first I was like Damn she is fine and of course she’s blonde, blue eyes, is a pro diver in Hawaii has had kids and still in a bikini. Wtf. But why did these emotions get so strong like I need to be worried….I mean come on it’s is ex from when he was 18.
Maybe it’s the fact that she was a friend to him when he was learning how to be a man. 4 years in your teens is basically the time where anyone you meet is going to be important in your life. She helped shape the man I am married to today. For that I thank her. Even if he says he hates her…..why oh why is she on his friends list then. I can understand 20 years of curiousity and wanting to see into someone’s life……I feel stupid for thinking this way. 😏
The sun was shining as I drove down the strand.
There you were in your board shorts covered in sand.
As I came to a stop you extended your hand.
Right there in that spot I knew my heart would forever be in your hands.
You’ve loved me all these years in spite of all the tears.
Our past may have a lot of trash but our love is gonna last.
We may not know what tomorrow holds but we both promised we would be forever bold.
We walk this world together.
Upholding a life which is so much better.
You, me and God makes three.
Forever circling eternally.
So on that day of sand and light.
It’s you My Love that I hold tight.
Always and Forever