Jealous creeps up and then punched me in the gut. 

Jealousy is a horrible feeling. It causes such destructive thinking.  It’s such a weird emotion for me to comprehend. It’s amazing how fast the craziness started to swell with in me when I saw he had befriended his ex on Facebook.  At first I was like Damn she is fine and of course she’s blonde, blue eyes, is a pro diver in Hawaii has had kids and still in a bikini. Wtf.   But why did these emotions get so strong like I need to be worried….I mean come on it’s is ex from when he was 18. 

Maybe it’s the fact that she was a friend to him when he was learning how to be a man. 4 years in your teens is basically the time where anyone you meet is going to be important in your life.    She helped shape the man I am married to today. For that I thank her. Even if he says he hates her…..why oh why is she on his friends list then.  I can understand  20 years of curiousity  and wanting to see into someone’s life……I feel stupid for thinking this way. 😏  

The Day I Found You

The sun was shining as I drove down the strand.

There you were in your board shorts covered in sand.

As I came to a stop you extended your hand.

Right there in that spot I knew my heart would forever be in your hands.

You’ve loved me all these years in spite of all the tears.

Our past may have a lot of trash but our love is gonna last.

We may not know what tomorrow holds but we both promised we would be forever bold.

We walk this world together.

Upholding a life which is so much better.

You, me and God makes three.

Forever circling eternally.

So on that day of sand and light.

It’s you My Love that I hold tight.

Always and Forever