Sitting near holding my tears
Telling myself there’s not a thing I should fear
Wishing I could kick my own ass into gear
“Just move” I whisper to myself
Spiraling up and down and all around
Take a breath *sigh.. oh, that helped
Breath in breath out
What was I doing again
Tears hot and heavy still in the corners of my eyes
What just happened
How fast the sadness and confusion comes and goes
A piece here
A piece there
My heart is aching
My spirit misplaced
Work has yet to be started
Tired and exhausted
Trying to keep steady with the pace
Cold sweat my thoughts do cause
When did I pause
To be able and willing
Forgetting …….. what was I doing again
Wipe the tears
Sit up straight
Just get through the day
Too many words
Placing themselves within
For when to begin
A gnawing constant
That screams and shouts
Please Lord God ….
Keep my heart.
Maybe I might just fall apart.
Started at the top
Thrown to the bottom
Rose up through the middle
Healing the sorrowful memories from yesteryears
A little child forever inside
With the laughter of a world free and clear of the burdens
For she has seen visions of air
Grace and Faith go hand-in-hand
For her well is never dry
Tears fall from her eyes as if she needed to taste the salt of the sea to be alive
In peaceful silent she sits
Waiting for the ground to shake
Waking those looking for light
Truth she speaks with a flare of amusement…
Music she sees
In movements of words
She is art and all its delights
Won’t you wake for her tonight
A smile she gives
A little giggle
A shy grin
When you meet her lift her up
Give her all she desires
For her soul is also with yours.
In John 10:27 Jesus says, “My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.” There are many voices competing to shape us. There is your own voice, the enemy’s voice, the voice of the world, and the voice of God. His voice is the only one that matters! The creation cannot name itself, only the creator has that right. You have a loving Father who knows exactly who you are and why He made you. Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 10:5, “We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ,” so ask the Father to identify where the world, the enemy, or even you, have wrongly defined who you are and then replace that lie with truth. Only one voice should define you, the voice of the Father. A good way to determine if a thought does not align with God’s word is to measure it against something that you would say to a friend. You would never tell your friend that they are worthless, that God doesn’t love them, or that they are beyond the Lord’s rescue, so why would you think any of that could be true of you? Through His word, allow God to help you identify and extinguish those lies with the truth of what He thinks about you. No other voice should define you, but that of your Father’s.
I am a temple within God?.
No longer will I endure the torment of an image that is not mine. I am meant for freedoms. The past has left a wake of despair but my moment is in the now. What is done in that moment is what will define my next. I am tired of being scared of love. For I have known the ins and outs of a great love and let me tell you… the pain is so unbearable yet some how I find a sweetness deep within just so I am able to say Im ok. But ok with what,.. being in despair, sorry , but fudging flippiddy that.
Love is not a possession to be had but a gift that is shared by actions that have nothing to do with ourselves. Today I choose to give love to myself , to respect myself, to prove myself to me. If that makes sense.
I’m tired of trying so hard to be someone to someone else and nobody to me.
My promise is with God and that makes me smile. In the now. 😃