Sitting near holding my tears
Telling myself there’s not a thing I should fear
Wishing I could kick my own ass into gear
“Just move” I whisper to myself
Spiraling up and down and all around
Take a breath *sigh.. oh, that helped
Breath in breath out
What was I doing again
Tears hot and heavy still in the corners of my eyes
What just happened
How fast the sadness and confusion comes and goes
A piece here
A piece there
My heart is aching
My spirit misplaced
Work has yet to be started
Messy space
Tired and exhausted
Trying to keep steady with the pace
Cold sweat my thoughts do cause
When did I pause
To be able and willing
changing flaws
Forgetting …….. what was I doing again
Oh well
Wipe the tears
Sit up straight
Just get through the day
Smile
Too many words
Placing themselves within
Hidden away
For when to begin
A gnawing constant
That screams and shouts
Please Lord God ….
Keep my heart.
For today
Maybe I might just fall apart.
~smc